Peace and love to you all.
I wish I were able to say that Mom and Adam went this morning, and he was alert and talking and cantankerous and ready to come home. Unfortunately, I can't. The neurology as it stands right now does not look promising and the bloodwork labs show a decrease in most areas. What this means, in the most delicate terms, is that Mom, Adam, and I have had to at least begin the worst conversation a family can have. Let me be clear that he is still with us for right now! And miracles are, of course, possible as everything is possible through God. However, the necessary time for a miracle to happen is literally any minute now. Until that comes, we need to prepare.
We are hurting, to say the least. The unthinkable has shifted from unthinkable to unlikely to possible to...well, as I said, we have had conversations. Sleep has been difficult. Eating has been sparse. All three of us are, frankly, sort of like zombies. We are as strong as we can be and the support and love from all of you has helped tremendously. We ask that you continue your prayers and your kindness as we hope for that miracle to occur.
This has been a difficult entry to write. There are words that I simply refuse to say or write yet because I am holding on with every ounce of my strength to hope for God's intervention to bring my father back to us. Yet, I have to acknowledge that that specific result may not be in God's plan for us. Until then, though, I will continue to hope.
Thank you all so much for your prayers and thoughts over this last week. It's only Saturday, but it feels like a lifetime already. Yesterday, I asked you to, if possible, give a little boost to your prayers. If there is a way to super-turbo-charge your prayers now, I am asking for that. Please keep us all in your thoughts as we hope and wait for whatever the outcome may be.
I leave you with a Bible verse. This comes from Proverbs 3:5-6 and reads:
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
We will trust and follow Him. All we can do is hope that the path He has ahead of us leads to my father coming back to us. Please feel free to comment or leave whatever you like. Knowing that you are there with us helps more than you can know.
After 43 years of ministry, Randy Cross lived his "fourth life" and shared about retirement, living boldly and intentionally in our world. To be sure, there was some North Dakota thrown in.